Reflecting on who I was and used to be
and who I am now makes me feel a little sad
because there are traits that I once had
that are no longer evident in me -
like punctuality and kindness.
I stopped being punctual because
I started to actually LOATHE waiting for people
because it shows that they don’t respect time
and now I’m one of them
because I changed my mindset -
"Why should I be the sucker waiting?"
And from genuinely wanting to help people
who ask me for help -
now, more often than not, I question their motives
on whether they plan on using me
just like how a certain someone (or maybe two) did to me years back.
Why should I let a grudge determine my treatment towards others, for those who genuinely need real help?
Maybe it’s time for me to make a conscious decision to undo all these bad traits.